AnNaLiA-Nd

Now, I’m sitting on my desk, watching my baby Kei taking her nap. Fuih..this is the best free moment of the day in my daylife. I’ll have like 1 - 2 hours doing everything I wanna do since there’ll be no chance for me for the rest of the day doing unproductive things (or it can be very productive?) like this. Well, it usually ends up by thinking silly things or even great things. It could always be 2 sides, a bad thing or good thing. It’s all my choice.

Yes this is my choice or a choice that was offered to me. I would say it was a willy-nilly situation. Ops..Now I’m becoming a unwise person by saying that word.

Being a full time Mom is a job that I had never thought. Unfortunately I’ve never prepared myself for this job. This is the most honorable job in the universe. I was so scared, worry, unsure about staying at home, raising a child & working with the art of home management. I used to think about losing identity, having no interesting soul and becoming an unvaluable person. I was so depressed and whining all the time.

It’s so ashamed that society looks down to a woman who doesn’t have a career outside the house. It may sounds so old fashioned, but what’s wrong with that? One day I woke up and started thinking about the new concept. Nothing is wrong if the entire family is so demanding. I stepped out and I’m trying to go deeper and deeper into motherhood life.

I’m thinking the future…. I’ll be sitting on a rocking chair watching my masterpiece that I put a lot of effort in my past times. Then I don’t think I have to be a great woman, I just have to be a happy Mom.